“The only pain that can be avoided is the pain that comes from trying to avoid unavoidable pain. To heal, our souls need to grieve. And a nurturing part of that is telling our story, connecting with others”
Are you dead yet? Death is the only ultimate end. When can you ultimately stop trying? So long as you are alive, and not in your grave, you can seek Allah’s Help, seek forgiveness,make a difference, change and strengthen. we MUST find ways to move on.
As her sedative weakens, cold sheets greet her as Sophia tries to open her eyes puffy and red. She wakes up to the familiar smell of tears and blocked sinuses. The same walls, the same air. The sun never tires of coming up each day. Bleakly she looks around feeling the same dread settle into her chest where something throbs with tender loudness. Memories flood her mind and play behind her wet eyes. Anxiety grips her as her body begins to shake and tears begin to swell in her eyes again. She wonders when or whether the twisting and churning hurt writhing inside her core will ever end. Whether what’s broken within could ever be stated or heal. Wether the Stains from the pain will ever cease to reignite the trauma. Desperate to overcome whatever this is, she knows she must get up and busy herself until evening. Im still alive, and so long as i am, my only option is to try. Allah sees my every efforts. So one day at a time she tells herself.
Years have gone by and this is just part of her now.
This sequence of emotional events manifesting themselves physically, are a common occurrence in Sophias life. When waking up, in the shower, at work, at an event where there is only joy around her, with family, eating, driving, alone or surrounded with people. At times debilitating and making her dysfunctional, she tries to continue the difficult task of keeping herself alive, having survived the opposite, and knowing her deen is against it. How does she maintain her faith, cut back the criticism and judgement and keep her heart pure for those around her?
Is it true that a ‘good muslim’ has all the answers? So long as one has strong Imaan, they should never experience depression or grief? They should never lose hope? Is our Imaan not ‘pure’ enough if we experience feelings of hopelessness? i try to adress these questions in An initiative for the Highly Sensitive Person, started to promote awareness and healing through photography and film, from emotional pain that manifests itself physically in the body, depression & the true vastness of this condition in its many forms and manifestations, anxiety, post-traumatic stress, and psychiatric vulnerabilities. We seek to change the way you view or use your sensitivity. To awaken, to inspire the Muslimah to realize that the lasting ‘Stains’ of past Trauma’s will be healed, By the will of Allah, insha-Allah. You are the main person that will facilitate your progress by education, will power and strength.